Definition of Self

RetiredIn an earlier blog post I wrote of passing milestones in my life. I have now passed yet another milestone. Friday, January 17, 2014 was my last working day with the City of Cincinnati Police Department. I have been getting up and heading to work at various assignments and various locations within the Cincinnati Police Department for the past 42 ½ years, and now it is over. I am not sure how I feel about that. I am not one of those people who chased retirement like it was the Holy Grail. I never looked forward to the day I would retire and in fact approached it with some degree of dread. I have been asked, after announcing my intentions to retire, what I am going to do. The short answer is, I do not have a clue. That somewhat bothers me as I think I am supposed to have made “retirement plans”. I did not.

Counting my time in the military, I have been a civil servant for 50 ½ years. That is all I have been, and that is all that I know. I have never held a full-time job in the private sector. I know not of that mysterious place. AS a retired person,, I am no longer sure what the definition of me is. As a full-time active duty member of the United States Navy for eight years, I was a sailor, and that defined me. As a member of the Cincinnati Police Department I was a Police Officer or Police Specialist or Police Sergeant for 25 years, and that defined me. As a member of the Cincinnati Police Department’s Information Technology group I was a Network Administrator and a Certified Novell Engineer, and that also defined me. But now that has all changed. Now nothing defines me. Is “retiree” a definition of self?

Do not get the point of this wrong. I am not whining about the lack of definition. In fact, I consider it a challenge. I am now seeking a new definition of self. Referring back to what I said earlier, I do not know what I am going to do, and therefore I do not know what the definition of me will be. I am not totally wandering aimlessly in a sea of uncertainty. I will review, revise, and begin working on the bucket list. I will pay more attention to my wife (something that I hope is not too little too late). I feel confident that with the extra time on my hands I will be putting more blog articles out there (did I hear someone moan?). I will begin immediately to begin Planning, Organizing, Staffing, Directing, Coordinating, Reporting, and Budgeting the rest of my life (that sounds familiar). So I am off to my new adventure as I seek to redefine myself once again.

So now my first order of business is out of the way.  I have written this retirement article.  . . .now what?  I am open to suggestions, feel free to plunge right in and help me to figure this out.  So far I have had suggestions of running, walking, learning the guitar, taking up a hobby, writing a book, and doing nothing.  All (except running) are within the realm of possibilities.

Those are my thoughts, what are yours?


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    • Tim on January 20, 2014 at 9:08 am
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    Travel! First stop: New England. If you ever decide to go to German or Austria, bring me!

      • Jen on January 20, 2014 at 11:50 am
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      me too!!!

      Agreed though – come to New England. You can wait until the winter is over first if you want. 🙂

    • Sherry on January 20, 2014 at 9:18 am
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    Well one of my suggestions was writing a book because I love to read what you write. You did not put being a grandfather in that list. Reading your retirement blog about being a civil servant for 50-1/2 years, I can only imagine how you feel. Because I am having trouble with it after 30 years. Like anything else it’s a habit and I am sure over time we will find our path. Keep writing my friend!

    • judy aka judi aka judith on January 20, 2014 at 10:53 am
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    First of all Congratulations! Unlike you ,I do look forward to the day I retire.At least 3+ years!It seems far away but I know it will go fast.Since I will have you and Karen to show me the way I will watch and learn from you!Have fun and if I come up with any good ideas I will let you know.Take care of your health and keep on blogging!

    • Jen on January 20, 2014 at 11:51 am
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    Don’t forget volunteering. There are so many great causes out there – some of which you are already passionate about.

  1. The first word of the anagram PODSCORB is Planning. We all know the cliché, “mind, body, and spirit.” When I came to realization that I had a terminal disease (long after I was informed that I had a terminal disease), I worked on planning for the rest of my life and afterlife. I highly recommend it.

    As to time, I will again offer you the opportunity to continue your civil service under considerably less stressful circumstances. We desperately need a webmaster. It will help with your mind and spirit. I’d love to take you to lunch and discuss it. You got my email.

    • Gerry on January 23, 2014 at 7:01 am
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    Tom, I’ve thought about you frequently this week, mainly because you have retired, and I’m next up! Yours refreshed my considerations of it, and I can appreciate the dread part of it. Anyway, I’ll be lurking about, dropping by from time to time.

    Hello to Steve Kramer: I got your napkin note last night!

    • Johnk632 on May 24, 2014 at 12:02 am
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    Hello! Do you use Twitter? I’d like to follow you if that would be okay. I’m undoubtedly enjoying your blog and look forward to new posts. eaabdbdkcaek

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